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My name is Britt, and I live in Jersey. and just like every other weight blog, I am trying to lose weight. Within the span of only two years, I managed to work my scale up to 205 pounds. I am 5'5. Too much stress with my family, and being mentally brainwashed by my ex boyfriend has led me to ' eat my feelings. ' I am self concious when I walk into a classroom. I feel that the only thing that they are staring at is my huge stomach and thighs. When I get dressed in the morning, I put a sweater over my head and put on a pair of jeans. Brush my hair and teeth, and leave. I have no energy to attempt to look pretty. I feel almost as if I would look stupid, if trying.I have a pretty face, but that won't take me very far. I am so sick of looking in my mirror and hating what I see. I break down and just cry. I can not take this. Every diet I have tried has failed, and when they do I binge. Then I get more sick of myself. I need a change and I need it now. I want to be skinny. I want to walk past the people who made fun of me, or knew me as 'fat'. Walk past them in my own cut off shorts and a new colorful tank top. Hair in a messy bun. Showing off my hip bones and color bones. Wearing sunglasses. Perfectly tan. Earphone in one ear with the other hanging to its side. Strutting my new and improved ass and legs, like I don't have a care in the world. Knowing, that they are looking at me in complete shock. Hearing them whisper how thin I have gotten. And I, bringing out the hidden, happy, outgoing girl who was locked away for so many years. I have a huge smile on my face, and I am just glowing. Because I did what everyone told me was impossible. I proved everyone wrong. I am skinny.

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STARTING WEIGHT: 195lbs. GOAL WEIGHT: 145lbs. WHEN REACHED: 185- Pajama set from VS! (COMPLETED)...175- Buy gym clothes! (not completed) ...165- Get mani,pedi, and go tanning! (not yet completed)...155- New hair color! (not yet completed)...145- Shopping spree in NYC! (not yet completed)